
So in case anyone didn't know. I seem to be what we call, "reproductively challenged". Well, maybe not completely but as my OB/GYN says, it's going to be harder for me to get pregnant than others. :-( I won't go into the details but it has to do with my unpredictable cycle. Oh well. I'm not even really sure Geof and I are ready to be parents but we do know we're not getting any younger. Geof use to always say, "nobody's ever really ready to be a parent". I didn't use to understand that but now I think I do.
If Geof and I got pregnant right after we got married, we would already have a three year old. Yikes! I can't even imagine that. When/if I get pregnant, I just hope it's before I'm 35. My egg's aren't getting any smarter. LOL
What makes it hard is that I am now at an age where all my friends are either having babies or already have children. Although I am so happy for them, it's hard to face that I might never know the joy of carrying my own child. Eh, I'm not a deeply religious person, but maybe some higher power has a different path for me. It's just hard to deal with.
But to look at the positive side of the story, Geof and I are continuously working on our relationship together. I loved him within the first few months that I met him, I loved him the day we were married, but I love him even more now. We know each other so well that we can predict our mood swings. I know I'm far from a perfect wife. I'm bossy, pessimistic, controlling, and did I mention bossy? But I will work on being a better wife for my husband. He is a big kid and I'm pretty sure he'll always be that way. He has a big heart, bigger than anyone else I know. That big heart of his isn't always visible to all, but I know how often he puts others in front of himself, and I will continue to love him with all my heart for that reason and many others.
Well, I don't think anyone actually reads this but it helps to type it.